Lent is coming at an interesting time for me. Some old and chronic wounds have been freshly felt again, and with them various layers of fear and shame and judgment. Perhaps I will fast from trying to change those things, trying to get over them as quickly as possible or to pretend that I have, trying to protect other people from them, and being ashamed when I fail. Such efforts prop up the false self; they don’t foster the development of the true self, the one God knows.


I will be online one hour or less each day (except for Spanish lessons, during which I will have no other tabs open). If I need to use the computer to write a blog post or an email, I will do so offline and publish / send during my online time.

I will accept all feelings with mindfulness, neither pushing any away nor clinging to any.

I will embrace all of myself, even the parts I don’t like.

I will remember Jesus, and that I have no longer any need to fear.

I will be open to gratitude.

I will show up for my life and not be ashamed.


Not really resolutions

I might as well list here, mostly for myself, what all I need and want to do in the new year. Obviously the list is not going to encompass everything I care about and want to do — just the things I think need reminders or goal-setting and that I’m willing to share publicly.

1) Prepare for the beginning of homeschool. That includes thinking about what room(s) to use in what way(s) and any changes I might need to make or furniture I might want to build, doing a little curriculum / lesson planning, and buying and making materials to continue with Montessori math.

2) Continue in the Daily Office — morning and evening prayer — and when I’m able, attend Wednesday evening prayer and mass. The diocese is also doing a read-the-whole-Bible challenge and I would like to join in with that. I might also want to work on creating time and space for other spiritual disciplines, including solitude and silence, which are hard for me.

3) Finish the quilt! And then perhaps start to learn pattern drafting.

4) Progress in computer time management — two hours or less each day seems a reasonable goal right now. To do the wonderful things Facebook allows with more moderation, and turn Facebook off when I am doing something else. To continue blogging through Charlotte Mason, maybe through Thornton, along with other things. Continue reading

Happy New Year

Hi friends and family!

We were to have our biennial New Year’s celebration with our Virginia friends, but alas, they came down with the norovirus. Instead, we were able to celebrate with local friends with a fantastic fondue party. Perhaps the best part was that they turned their clock ahead to Rio de Janeiro time, so that at 9:00 we could taste our champagne and call it a night.

Nah, the best part was the cheese. B and A made the cheese with a recipe from some family-friendly site, so it was made with apple cider instead of beer or wine. The cheeses were brie and mozzarella, flavored with a bit of mustard, salt, and pepper. Fantastic. Extremely yummy. I don’t even usually like the cheese course. Also? They lightly steamed the broccoli. So it actually tasted good with the cheese. (Apparently, the mushrooms also benefited from their light sauté.) And good bread and the thinnest apple slices. Mmmmmm. L and J’s pastured beef and chicken and broth was fantastic as well, and I dare say our chocolate was pretty fantastic too, with brownies, pretzel rods, bananas, and cinnamon graham crackers plus L and J’s Rice Krispies treats.

We sure are bummed to have missed our VA friends, though. Littlest one is nearly two years old and we were especially looking forward to meeting her.

So, anyway, I haven’t done much reflection on the year as a whole, but I think I’m going to do a few things somewhat resolution-like.

1) Back to the desserts-in-moderation guideline: no more than two sweets in a week, and some weeks can have none or one. This way I can thoroughly enjoy whatever the sweet is, and also have a clear guide to help against overindulgence.

2) I am finally leaving disgusting GoDaddy. I am either going to transfer my domain registration to Canvas Dreams or to Gandi.net, whose prices are comparable but who have better ethics. Canvas Dreams is even committed to sustainability.

3) I signed up for a daily photography challenge at Mamatography, which should be fun.

Nothing else comes to mind right now, but I may come back and add something later.