PPD update

Good things:

• Enjoying Amy’s smiles and generally being able to be with her
• No out of control emotional episodes
• A job offer for Mark from the place in Indiana… and two weeks to decide

Not so good things:

• Not sleeping well for a few weeks. Maybe it’s the Zoloft.
• Some intense emotional episodes along with self-condemnation for them
• Wanting more me time, but feeling I haven’t done everything else sufficiently

I wrote this poem last week:

Sometimes I rebel:

I stand.
I walk — run — even skip and leap.
Sometimes (whispering) I dance.

But it doesn’t take much to put me back in my place:

Cowed.
Silenced.
Attenuated.
Compressed.
Ashamed and hidden.

Am I Prince Rilian? Which is the spell and which the reality?
Cringing evokes hitting, but so does hope and confidence.