Day two

Day two:

Amy stayed asleep from the time I got up until just before my first volunteers, Ann and Heidi, showed up. Gave me a chance to tidy a bit and take down the Christmas tree. Soon after that she woke up, and I had changed her and was in the middle of feeding her when Ann and Heidi arrived. When she fell asleep, we cleaned house. I dusted and vacuumed the living room and hallway, and Ann did the bathrooms — what a gift! They brought lunch, too.

Amy woke up again just in time for the first volunteers to leave and the next one, Erin, to arrive. We changed her, fed her, and then gave her a bath. She had a nice awake time in her bouncy seat, fascinated by my feet — I was lying down to ease my back and had my feet up in the air, and she watched them as I waved them around a bit.

She was content enough that I got up to do laundry, and then she fell asleep. She had another changing and feeding — a bit fussy, that feeding — and dozed again for a little. Not long after Mark got home she woke up, and now he’s reading to her.

Heidi held Amy for me for a while, Erin helped me give the bath and watched her when she was contentedly awake. I had a short break when I wasn’t ready for her to be awake yet. Otherwise it’s been another good day. And this time it didn’t start with me anxious and crying about Mark leaving.

I am always reluctant to say anything too positive. This day went well, but I did have help and I wasn’t alone… I feel fairly good about things, but I don’t think I’m ready to go it alone yet.